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Disappear

from Mainstay by Speed Of Life

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about

An illusion I was asking to disappear. The illusion that I am alone, am not being helped or cared for and that I don’t need anyone. I was longing for connection but wasn’t finding it. The song was an attempt to allow myself to be intimate with others without allowing my insecurities and judgments to get in the way.

lyrics

Disappear
(Zay, Taylor, Tobias)

I don't want anyone to take care of me
I don't want anyone to know who I am
Behind my mask I hide my needs
Behind my eyes I am sad

Keep your eyes open
They wash away the pain
Keep your eyes open
No ones pushed you away

Sabotage by disappointing you
I'm scared my needs will start to hurt you
Don't want to lose myself in your imagined demands
If I'm not being the best I cut off my hands

Keep your eyes open
They wash away the pain
Keep your eyes open
No ones pushed you away

Stuck in a place with no intimacy
Afraid to reach out my hand
and all the reasons I am wrong for you
Need to disappear in the sand

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from Mainstay, released November 22, 2004

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John Zay New York, New York

I make Epic Lush Alt/Prog/Electronic Rock Songs
“John Zay is a superb guitar player, lyricist & vocalist as well. I’m a believer and you should be too!”
• Angelo Moore, Lead Singer of Fishbone

Vocalist, Guitarist, Multi-Instrumentalist & Producer. Shamanic Explorer, Plant Medicine Advocate, Lucid Dreamer and Surfer whenever possible. Currently in NYC
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